Scars

My whole life I kept a secret. I never told a single soul.
I thought it was a weakness if I would let myself become exposed.
I never said a word, always kept my pain silent
But deep inside my heart and soul
I could hear the sirens.
I was crying out for help within my own confinement.
Many days have passed, but I am reminded…
that I was betrayed by the people that I should’ve
confided in.
I was just a child
and you all knew that early on
I was exposed
to a world so vile.
You took my smile.
You took my innocence
and left me stranded in denial.
You told me that my “incident” was just imagined.
But I know it wasn’t.
I wish the words that I speak was
just a lack of judgement.
I’ll find it hard to function knowing that my past
is still alive today.
I wish it was a dream, but it’s not.
I’m wide awake.
My memories could possibly be the death of me.
I can’t believe you took that part from me.
I forgive you for raping me,
just know that you messed me up
and left a scar mentally.
Could you not see that you stole my childhood
and left me traumatized?
So much hate and self-destruction
like a bomb was going off inside.
No I can’t lie, that I’ve often wanted to die.
If love was real then why is it so hard to find?
The only love I once knew caught me blind.
I was 14 years old when you chose to take advantage.
Because of it, your temporary pleasures left me permanently damaged.
Regardless I wont let your selfish acts of cruelty turn me heartless.
I can promise you that one day I’ll rise.
I might be sick now, but know that karma will turn it’s tides.
Take a look into my eyes
And Dont Forget This Image.
If you take a deeper look to see what you’ve inflicted
you will see all the sorrow that I’ve kept hidden.
Here it’s not forbidden.
I refuse to keep on suffering from your decisions…
although I know I cannot erase these acts that you have committed,
I know my life will be uplifted!
I will smile again!!
Go ahead and mark my words, it’s fine.
A flower only blossoms when it grows from the dirt,
and although it hurts
I will confront you and no longer run.
I do forgive you and the things you have done.
I know my worth, and I will search until I find sun!
Let the story show…
NOW my life has begun.
My story is so far from over…
I’ve closed this chapter of the book,
and I’ve finally given it closure.

-Lacy Ingle, Featured HeArtwork Artist