I'm Avoiding: a short purge about self sabotage

I need to purge some frustration with myself for a minute…..

I am sitting here avoiding making the 10 minute yoga video that goes for release on Friday. It’s Wednesday. I just posted the public announcement of the videos release to help get me motivated to get. it done.

Do you ever find yourself avoiding the things you know will help you achieve your dreams? Hello, self sabotage. I have been in a self sabotage funk lately. From yoga to work to my own mental health. & I am so sneaky about it. I convince myself I need to do something else or I just “forget”. and I do forget.. those quotations don’t mean that I don’t really forget, but rather it’s almost like my subconscious mind has another idea and plays games with me. That’s why having a mental illness can seem like your subconscious is a different entity altogether. It does things without our permission. Leading us into perpetual cycles of stagnation. That’s why it’s so important to try to be aware of yourself and your actions, reactions, and emotions, mentally, physically, and emotionally. But no one’s perfect so here we are, with the ability to unknowingly keep ourselves from our own ambitions.

So here I am telling you, my subscribers, that the video I just promised you on my blog, isn’t even made yet. But it isn’t from lack of trying. I have tried to make this video a few times now, even completing it and being happy with the result, until halfway through the sound went out. The antagonist likes to attack us most when we are on the right path, but it sure can be discouraging! I am not giving up…but the avoidance started up again after that failure.

So here’s to getting that video done today…. Check your inboxes on Friday to see if I managed to pull it off. I’ve got a great little flow lined up to help get us grounded and bring some acknowledgment to the security and comfort we can give ourselves. Lord knows I need it right now…..

Can you relate??